It’s My Birthday

Yup, it’s today.  I find it somewhat sad that my birthday is also the anniversary of Roe vs. Wade.  Kinda stinks…

Besides that, I am really having a great day.  My parents watched Ella for us last night.  Especially since on Thursday I was feeling VERY overwhelmed by her horrid diaper rash. I practically had a breakdown and just felt like the worst mother in the world.  My mom knew an overnight break was just what I needed.   I shouldn’t complain because I have been getting lots of help from my family this week.  My mother-in-law helped me a ton too.  But I just got to my wits end with the diaper rash.

I’ve been battling it for WEEKS and even took her to the doctor.  The rash on most of her bottom is gone, but there are literally open raw wounds/lesions on her behind that are from when the rash was at it’s worst and they just look AWFUL.  Thankfully I think I have finally discovered the magic concoction to help clear it up.  But each diaper change is sooooo involved.  It’s like I’m doing a major surgical procedure every time with about 20 steps.  It’s mainly because she’s just pooping all the time.  A little bit here, a little bit there.  I cannot change her diaper every 15 minutes and that’s what I felt like I was doing.  And then there were the times when I would just get done changing her and whoops….she went again.  I was just exhaustipated.  Especially since I didn’t feel like all that work was producing any results!

Sorry, I didn’t mean to go off on the diaper rash but her butt has been in the forefront of my mind for WEEKS (I never thought I’d think about my kid’s butt so much).  I had to at least give it a little bloggy-time.

Back to my birthday…it’s amazing what 9 hours of sleep can do for you.  I feel like a new woman.  Ella’s bottom is just now starting to heal a little and I’m thrilled for at least a little progress (oh wait, no more diaper rash talk).  I also had a nice breakfast with my hubby and Ella at a local diner.  It was perfect and Ella was a little angel!  She’s actually been a sleepy little angel all day!  I swear, this child sleeps a ton, well at least during the day.  I have the hardest time keeping her awake for a little while during the day.  When she’s tired, there’s NO waking her.

But I’m not complaining.  Even after sleeping tons yesterday, she still slept great for my mom and dad all night.  I’m hoping she does the same for us tonight.  That would be a great birthday present for me honey…hint hint.

I just know that every year on my birthday for the last 4 birthdays (possibly 5, without my hubby’s knowledge, ha ha), I’ve wished for a child.  And I never thought we’d have a child by even this birthday!  I feel so blessed.  I don’t even know what I’m going to wish for this year.

Actually, I do know.  I’m still going to wish for a baby, just not for me.  But for all my sweet friends who are still waiting.  Love you guys and I never stop praying for you!

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