I Can Finally Breathe

So things have definitely been going better for me the last week or so!  I feel like I am finally able to take a breather.  Even though I have the 2 shifts a week at the hospital, I feel so much more under control now. 

I had an exam this morning and I did pretty well.  That is amazing considering when I walked out of the exam I seriously thought I bombed it completely.  I think my guessing skills were unusually stellar today and she threw out a couple questions that didn’t end up being good questions.  I ended up with an A-!  How the heck?!?…oh well, I am not complaining.

The best news is that I don’t have another exam for 2 weeks.  Now I can spread out my studying instead of locking myself in my house the whole weekend before.  What a relief!

One annoying thing is that my NaPro doctor still hasn’t called with my results yet.  We’ve spent the last two weeks in communication breakdown over whether or not he had my Creighton chart.  Apparently it didn’t go through (fax) the first time but I didn’t find out until a week later.  Then I faxed it again, it did go through but he couldn’t read it and wanted it in color (he tells me a week after that).  I finally e-mailed it to him last Friday but I haven’t heard from him since.  Tomorrow and Wednesday I’ll be working sans cell phone all day so the soonest I’ll hear is Thursday.  Cross your fingers, I just want to know already!

I have been reading a couple of your girls’ blogs about the HCG injections.  It sounds promising, at least as it relates to PMS!  (we’ll, see about pregnancy, Sew!)  I could really use some help in that area, especially during nursing school.  The last thing I need is to have an emotional meltdown during one of my shifts.  I don’t want to be the crier of the group!  LOL!

I’m nervous about this coming weekend.  I have a baby shower to attend.  I wouldn’t be worried except that I’m 99% sure it will be right in the middle of survival week for me.  Hopefully all my school stuff has helped distract me enough that I’ll be fine.  I just can’t predict my emotions during those couple days. 

Baby showers are just tough in general.  Not because I’m not happy for the mom, I just can’t help but wonder if I will ever get to experience that, you know?  Sometimes when reality sinks in, you just get a sick feeling, like you just somehow know it will never happen for you.

BUT, I will be praying and I absolutely do NOT know that it will never happen for me so why make myself sick about it.  I’ll just focus on her and indulge in the yummy food and friendly company!

Ok, I am off to bed.  I want to get to bed early since I have to get up at 4:15 am…ugh!

Hopefully now that things have calmed down, I will be better about posting.  I have a really crazy/sad story to tell you about school and this whole nursing thing.

By the way, thanks for those of you who checked in on me the last few weeks with your comments.  That means a lot that you did and I assure you, besides being extremely busy, I’m doing really well!  Thanks!!!  I’m also trying to get caught up on all your blogs too! 

One last thing for those of you who watch SYTYCD,  I can’t tell you how mesmerized I was by last week’s performance by Kayla and Kupono…WOW!  It gave me chills!  The dance  had the guy dancing as the “addiction” and the girl dancing as the “addict.”  The guy was manipulating the girl and she tried to resist/get away from him but he kept dragging her back in…it was so amazing. As much as I love the current partnerships, I am excited to see the partnerships changed up.  I always wonder who is good in their own right vs. who is good because their partner is good! 

Ok seriously, I am going to bed!  Good night all!