Another week looms!

Ah, the beginning of another week looms in front of me!  If I can just make it through this one, I will feel a LOT better!  Of course today is CD 1, but it ’s no big suprise really.  I was expecting it and sure enough, right on time.  I’m like clock-work, it’s almost sickening.  How can I be like clock-work and still be totally infertile.

Anyway, the good news is that I am already feeling light years better than I was a few days ago!  Yay!  I am back!

Also good news, as I was praying at mass today I just got the strongest feeling of peace from God.  I was thinking about school and everything I have to do this week and how crazy busy I have been and I was once again strongly reminded of how good it is that I don’t have a child right now.  As painful as this whole process has been (and still is at times), I am actually really grateful and how it’s all turned out.  I know I’ve mentioned this before but it just hit me again really strongly.  I just realized that if I had a child right now, I would be missing out on so much of his/her life and that would KILL me!  I find it hard to study now when my dog walks up to me and wants to snuggle.  Imagine if that were my own child….?

So I literally thanked God for not giving me what I asked for…am I crazy or what?  That being said, it would be really really great if he could flip the fertility light switch back on for me sometime over the next 6-10 months…ha ha!  But who knows what He has in store for me!

By the way, I’m all done with my blood draws but I haven’t had time to get it shipped to PPVI’s hormone lab yet!  Hopefully I can do it on Wednesday.  Too bad my doctor said it can take over a month to get the results…but no biggie, I am obviously used to waiting by now!