CD 2…finally…Clomid here I come…ugh!
March 10, 2008
Hey There,
Well AF decided to finally show her face last night…finally! I was actually relieved because I was starting to worry something was wrong. I’ve never had a luteal phase go that long before. But then again, since she showed up later yesterday, it just means my luteal phase was only 2 days longer than normal. And looking at my temps and fertility monitor results, it is possible my peak day could have actually been 1 day later, so I guess it really wasn’t all that unusual.
Anyway…thanks for your comments on our picture (that doesn’t appear to be working at the moment). I just realized how much I enjoy seeing what other people look like. It helps to put a face to blog. So I figured I might as well do it. It is just scary….what if someone I know finds me! I don’t mind people finding me really, I just would want to know that they found me. I’m sure you can all relate.
I just figured with all the details I have already given, chances are someone would recognize me just by the description. I mean, how many women engineers do you know that are going back to nursing school and who also volunteer at a Crisis pregnancy center, who used to be protestant but are now Catholic, who are struggling with infertility? I’m sure you get what I mean! I figured the photo couldn’t make it any worse! Ha Ha!
Nothing too much else is new here. I had thought about sending my temperature chart to my OB/GYN but I don’t want him to think I’m an annoyance. And just wanting him to know it didn’t work isn’t exactly the best reason to contact him. I don’t want him to feel like I’m mad at him, like I’m saying “why the heck didn’t this work!” Besides, it’s not like he’s going to have me do anything different this month. He already told me at my last appointment that we will try this for three more months.
Anyway, I’m just feeling a little down today after realizing that even with profused tubes, Clomid, estrace, a beautiful BBT chart, plenty of CM, perfect BD timing, and progesterone support, we still can’t get pregnant. Ok, I know, I know! I need to stop feeling sorry for myself. I was doing so well last week and I guess I’ve been slacking in my prayer life the past couple days. I’m sure that’s why I’m getting down again. Putting your faith in God regarding a certain situation is definitely not a one time event. It’s something you need to do constantly to avoid regressing…like me! I know what I have to do to fix it though! Have a great day!!
March 10, 2008 at 3:55 pm
Sorry this wasn’t the month for you guys. I know what you mean about the picture being a little bit scary. I always worry that someone I don’t want to know my business will discover it, but oh well I guess. Sometimes I wonder how we didn’t get pregnant month after month with our IUIs if they put million of sperm right near my egg and not one fertilizes it month after month. What the heck. But I guess everything happens for a reason. Maybe this is to teach me patience..or to bring me and my husband a little closer, or just to have a little more faith in something greater than ourselves.
March 10, 2008 at 4:22 pm
Yeah, but even fertile people only have a 20% chance every month! (I know, I can barely believe it because of how many people get pregnant, but you know, I trust the science.) So, even with all your perfection, it might not be right away.
(Of course, it totally sucks and is unfair and I am sorry. But I am trying to be cheerful.)
I thought the same thing about the picture. I decided to put mine up because I posted so much of my fairly unusual background that there is really no point. Of course, I will totally change my mind if anyone ever finds me.
March 10, 2008 at 4:44 pm
My LP was always 16 days, which was a good thing. But it sucked when I knew AF was coming, and I just wanted to hurry up and get it over with.
Oh and I do love the pic!
March 10, 2008 at 6:23 pm
Hi, there! I found your blog, and I wanted to leave a comment letting you know that I have PCOS, too. You’re not alone in this crazy journey. I’m currently only on Metformin (1000 mg) and haven’t gotten to Clomid just yet. That will be our next step. I hope you’ll check out my blog at playingthewaitinggame at blogspot when you get a chance!