Dealing with the finality of it all…

I just want to thank everyone for your tremendous support.  It is so touching that so many of you commented.  It is just amazing to me considering many of you don’t even know me and yet somehow we can all relate to that kind of loss.    Your words and prayers have really meant a lot.

We are doing ok.  My parents flew out to California today to begin making arrangements.  My other sister and I are flying out tomorrow to help them.  It is going to be a sad and difficult weekend but at the same time I know my family needs that time to get some closure.  It will be made more bearable since we will all be together to help each other through.  And I hope we learn even more about her as we pack up her things.

It’s just strange, in a sad way, because for so many years, my oldest sister Kerri, was not an active part of our family.  She left home on bad terms at 18 and did not reconnect with us until she was in her later 20’s.  So for a long time, she wasn’t in contact with us at all.  Thankfully she had gotten close with us again and we enjoyed many years of a good relationship before this happened.  It is strange because now we are back to the family of 4 again but this time there is no hope that it will ever change.  There’s no hope of rekindling anything.  She is just gone now and nothing can make it the way it was, the way it was meant to be.  That’s what hurts the most.

I will be gone until next week but I just wanted to make sure I thanked everyone for their kind words before I left.

Take care…