No New Year’s Moment…Yet…

Whoops, I wrote this yesterday (New Year’s Eve) but never hit the “Publish” button.  Oh well!

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So my Christmas moment has passed and I’m back in the dumps again.  It doesn’t help that my husband has been getting on my nerves in the worst way.  The latest annoyance…hounding me to go to the gym every other day the past two weeks.  I’ve gone every time he asked but it doesn’t mean I can’t be a bitch about it.  Today it especially got on my nerves because I have already gone 3 times since I got off work and he was ready to go again today…ugh…

He also told me that he wanted “us” to take all the Christmas decorations down today but what he really meant was that he wanted “me” to take down all the Christmas decorations.  Don’t you just hate that….every time my husband says stuff like…we really need to do “this” or we really need to do “that.”  What he really means is, you need to do “this” and you need to do “that.”  Or at least that’s what it feels like because he never just does it on his own. 

Yes, he did help the tiniest bit with taking down the decorations, but I did 90% of the work.  He sat down to eat before we were done so I just left it undone and went to the gym.  He could leave it as it was or finish it himself.  (by the way, he did…kinda)

I just don’t understand the big rush to take down the decorations.  It is always the most depressing time of the holidays for me and him rushing me into it is even more annoying.  It’s like he just can’t stand them being up 1 day longer because God forbid, I might leave them up until June!   Yeah, right.  It’s insulting.  

Ok, so obviously I’m in a bad mood.  I don’t know what it was that set me off…actually I have sort of an idea.  Yesterday, M was being quiet all day.  I asked him what was wrong.  He said nothing, that he just felt like being quiet.  So we ignored each other all night and watched TV in separate rooms.  I saw him go get a beer at one point and I thought, that sounds good.  So later on that night, I got up to get a beer and there were none left in the fridge.  This is the second time in only a couple days that he has taken the last beer and not put new ones in.  So I got pissed. 

Isn’t that the stupidest reason to get into a bad mood?  But that’s the sad truth. It was more because I felt like he has just been acting really selfish the past week or so.  And the fact that he didn’t refill the fridge (knowing that very thing pissed me off mildly two days ago) just made it seem like he wasn’t even thinking of me.  I have gone out of my way to do more around the house these past two weeks since I finally don’t have class and work to deal with and in turn, he has done jack squat and has barely even commented on all the work I have done.  What was the fricking point?  Why do I even bother?

Where is my Christmas moment when I need it…I guess that has obviously faded and now I need a New Year’s moment quick.  Especially since we are throwing our annual NYE party that we host with another couple tonight and I don’t even want to go.  Mostly because I am not in the worst mood and I’m afraid that attitude will lead to me drink one or five too many drinks.  Just kidding about the five part, but still, it’s not a good combination.

I know I’m being the hugest baby right now and I appreciate the listening ear.  Sometimes you just need to vent.  So after all that complaining, I do wish you all a very SAFE and Happy New Year!  Thanks for all the support so far!  It means so much!  I’ll be back in ‘08!